I am having a lot of thoughts lately, and it is starting to drive me nuts. Why does everything have to be so complicated? I spent pretty much two years of my life away from home and I loved it. You would think that moving back home would be even better since I am with my family, but it is not perfect. I miss the people I went to school with. My brasilian friends, the boys from Ecuador, and everyone else I have met. Life is crazy I feel like all of that came and left so quickly. Its like that Kenny Chesney song "Don't Blink". It is so crazy how it is so true. Life is going so quick and there is nothing that can be done. I am 20 years old and I still feel like I am younger. Everyone is getting married, but I am still wanting to travel and have fun with my life. I am no where close to settling down, and I am definitely not looking forward to it. I went to Brasil during the summer and I cannot wait to go back. I miss the people that I met there so much. When I went there they acted as though they have known me for my whole life. I love it. I just wish America was the same. Instead of living our own lives to the fullest we are too worried about what we look like, what people think about us, and what is going to come in the future.
Now that I am back there is nothing to do and no one to do anything with. I just wish things were more like Brasil. I just Americans can get over their insecurities and just live and have fun. Well that is enough of my rambling for now........
Far from the Madding Crowd (2015)
2 years ago